Why is Monday Nicknamed John?

Because Monday was long.

I am not sure where that cheesiness came from, although today was indeed long. I was determined to get as much done as possible, but the more I progressed, the more unnecessary distractions and obstacles arose. Long story short, today was not my finest day.

I lost my patience and a bit of my compassion. As much as I would like to simplify it to my frustration getting the best of me, I feel slightly ashamed that one "bad" day caused me to react so poorly. I could blame it on stress or lack of sleep, but in all honestly, I could have kept my calm.

I cannot help worrying about how my future career and how I still have so much yet to learn. Late-night shifts, long shifts, and troublesome patients are still in my future and I need to be able to regulate my emotions better in order to provide the best care for my patients.

With all that has occurred today, the most embarrassing part is the fact that I actually feel ashamed of my emotions. Should I really have to "battle" with my emotions as a nurse? If I do, I wonder if it will always be this way...

Treat Yo Self

Good, better, best,

Never stop to rest,

Until the good is better

and the better, best.

Out of all the things from the Stevens Family show on Disney Channel I remember, I remember Ren Stevens sing-songingly recite this. It is almost poetical how simplistic the rhyme is - especially with its depth. Now, this may be me over-analyzing things again, but I have found myself repeating this to myself every day and wonder if it is damaging my idea of a successful day.

I always wonder right before bed if there are a few more things I can do before ending my day. Whether that be writing a blogpost or reading one more section of a textbook, I always think of one or two more things that I can do to make my day seem more fulfilled. Silly, no? 

With the fast pace of nursing school, I constantly wonder if I am missing out on things. For instance, today I had an episode of New Girl playing on my computer as I took notes for a class. (SPOILER ALERT FOR SEASON 2) It got to the episode in which Nick kisses Jess (finally!) and I had to take a moment to recover my thoughts. It was such an expected thing, based on the way the season was going, but it took me completely by surprise. 

Or take, for a simpler example, looking at my cousin's senior soccer photos. I could not believe how grown-up my cousin looked! I still cannot believe time flies the way it does. 

What if I am missing out on things? I do not want to miss out on my loved ones' lives! I do not want to do poorly in school either! I want to keep up with everything all at once! WHAT TO DO?!?!

It occurred to me when I went to get bubble tea and fries (do not judge me - truffle fries and guava bubble tea with tapioca hit the spot after an exam) - that all I need to do is use my rewards wisely. Instead of napping when I do not necessarily need the sleep or watching a movie on my own I could be cooking in the kitchen with friends or enjoying someone's company while waiting in line to devour a delicious dessert (cough*Salt'N'Straw*cough). However pressed for time I may be, spending time with friends and accomplishing other tasks all amount to productivity in my book.